I must constantly remind myself to not cross that boundary.

mood: intimidated

The song Better In Time by Leona Lewis should be deleted from the playlist.
 

mood: optimistic

I cherish people who can accept the 'Because you are Lauren Foo' as a logical reason for the utmost insane things I do or say.
Because I do not have to please everyone.
And most importantly, am definitely comfortable for who I am.

Someone confronted me that I should change and needless to say, I ignored that person completely because who-do-you-think-you-are-lar? I'm not even close to you to begin with. *sigh, geram*

So yeah, I always expect people to just take it as because she is Lauren Foo. 

Today, I realised that I can no longer hold on to this argument.
One can accept it does not mean that everyone else can.
I have finally accept the fact and I am selfish and that's the reason why I always need some me-time.
I will try to have less me-time, but that does not guarantee that I will give up all my lonesome time. nyeh.
And no way that I'm going to cut down my family time.
Give me time, and I will try not to let you people down.

I'm starting to hesitate about my decision to take this 3 years journey.
No doubt, I have to run against time. But how much time is left for you, you and you?
How much will I gain and lose after 36 months? Will I even be contented for who I am?

Will those years of friendships let go of me one day? Is it worth it after all?
 

mood: gloomy

As much as I like holidays, I actually hate summer breaks. Not because of the excruciatingly hot climate. Malaysia is hot all year round anyway. 
More like bad things tend to happen in summer. 
Dreams which seemed to be so realistic yesterday may seem surreal today.
I've also learned that to avoid is not to solve.
And some things are easier said that done. 
Summer 2007, it was Mcdonalds. Summer 2008 it's Tony Roma's.
Let's pray for a better summer next year.

mood: moody

Guess what?? I'll be working part time for the next 2-4 weeks! *bows* Some data entry thingie in Dataran Ara Damansara.

I feel damn emo now T___T No more holidays for me. Btw, I have finally made up my mind to do MSc in Chemical Engineering. Means I'll NOT be working, at least not for the next 1 year. 

I'm so fickle and I hate making decisions. Stop telling me that this is part of life and start giving me all those auntie-uncle-nagging-stories that this is my life and I have to make my own decisions and yadda yadda. I've had enough of that and I totally understand that these people care for me but it annoys the hell out of me. 

The Maxis statement arrived at the mailbox few days ago and it states that I sent out 1361 sms-es in May. For your info, 100 sms-es in a month is already a lot to my dad. I think I'm gonna hide the phone bill and wait until next month's statement arrives. I have to control my kepoh-ness and stop reporting every single thing I know to my friends. I don't really trust MSN, and SMS is the next best option (do let me know if you have a better option =P).

Things to do:
1. Apply for MSc. 
2. Eat Chicken Fondue in Cheras.
3. Sell my clothes online.
4. Visit Sungei Wang and Petaling Street. 
5. Eat roti cheese telur/ cheese naan.

Damn sad lar okay. The last time I visited Williams, I didn't get to eat roti cheese telur or cheese naan cause the 'roti man' was on leave. They don't have another man to make roti meh?

mood: uncomfortable

One who has never failed to give me practical advices. And for that, I can always count on you whenever I have problems. One whose words always seem to have a soothing effect on me. One who puts in infinite effort so that the friendship keeps flowing. 
And that's you, Vern Li. *hugs*

mood: pleased