When people ask me why don't i blog anymore, i say i can't be bothered. or i've gotten lazy. or that nothing interesting is going on in my life anyway. or that i hate the attention WTF.
truth is, i don't know why i've stopped. i remember when i would love penning (or in this case, tapping away on the keyboard) down my thoughts, and the exhilaration it gave me when - forgive me for sounding conceited - i've written a good post. i remember when i would love to yak away on msn and stalk everyone's everyone on facebook and their blogs and myspaces and whatever social network that was current. when i would feel like something was missing if i didn't go on the internet for a day. i even remember rushing down to use the charge-by-hour computer in milan although there were so many things to do and sights to see.
if i were to be honest with myself, i stopped because it was just.. so much easier. people would not have pre-formed opinions of me (because how many of us are who we write ourselves out to be all the bloody time?), i would not have to answer to questions, and i would simply have a more private life. and this is silly, really, because i wasn't famous in any way to begin with as i only tagged along with the blogging fame of aud, jam and suet.
but sometimes it only takes one wrong person to read what you write. and frankly, i was tired of having people who think they know far too much when in fact, they know far too little.
anyway, just a quick update for loved ones who still read, i turned 18 (heeheee) about 10 days ago and celebrated it with the people who matter the most:
the two who conspired and successfully ochestrated a surprise for me
and i finally had my graduation ceremony during which i a) fell asleep and b) walked right past the chancellor of my uni without bowing and or acknowledging his presence which generated a few snickers from the crowd fml
i didnt know i was supposed to wear something that keeps my erm. blue thing from falling
i saw so many faces during winter graduation and i said 'oh i thought i was the only stupid one' wtf
with my mom, without whom my existence - and so much more - would just be impossible.
other than that i am still fine and dandy, if a bit lonely. being away from family and friends when you're at uni is one thing, but being away from them when you're working is another. it brings missing home to a whole new level and i just want to be home. where it's warm and cosy instead of this stupid place which snows and makes me slip and fall wtf.
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